My Story of Awakening

I had lost my sense of self, I had no idea who I really was. I just knew there had to be more to life. With my soul calling me forward I set out on a quest to find out.

Perhaps yours has been a sudden, dramatic and confusing awakening. Or perhaps like me, it began as a quiet discomfort. A vague sense of unease, a subtle feeling of discontent, a growing sense of dissatisfaction sitting like a cold stone in my stomach.

These uncomfortable feelings grew in intensity until I could no longer ignore what I sensed inside. My soul was calling me to step up, and take my life to the next level.

Perhaps you've begun to ask the same sacred questions that stirred within me. I longed to know at the deepest level...


  • Who am I - really?

  • What am I doing with my life?

  • Why am I here?

  • What is my purpose?

  • What are my gifts?

  • How can I make the world a better place?


My creative job wasn't answering it. Motherhood wasn't satisfying it. Though I loved these parts of my life, I had lost my sense of self by playing these 'roles' - I had no idea who I really was and this realisation painfully tugged at my gut and heart.

I just knew there had to be more to life. I had felt my soul calling and I was driven now. Something was pulling me forward with an almost obsessive compulsion - I had to answer these questions! With a sense of curiosity and excitement at creating something new for myself, I surrendered to the journey.

During my self-exploration I realised that in my life, creativity and dance had always been where I felt the most authentic. Colouring in with my favourite pencils or dancing around the lounge in my pyjamas was where I always felt free to 'just be me'. When my path led me to learn Reiki and meditation I experienced those familiar feelings of expansion and freedom, and then I knew that creativity; Reiki and meditation were important to my soul's expression.

By practicing meditation I experienced transcendental; spiritual truths, as well as valuable insight into my subconscious. I realised that I wasn't sharing my True Self with the world because subconsciously I felt "rotten at my core" due to unhealed childhood sexual abuse. Meditation helped me to peacefully recognise this and bathe it in the love-light of consciousness.

By practicing Reiki healing I was repeatedly surrounded with blissful, divine love. This euphoric energy reminded me that I wasn't rotten at my core - that I was actually pure, limitless, unconditional love. Though intellectually I knew that the abuse wasn't my fault, it was Reiki that helped me believe it in my heart and truly move into healing.

Meditation and Reiki helped me remember who I really am, but it was still scary to share this more authentic version of myself with others. It was through playful creative expression that I explored, experimented and eventually developed the confidence to express my True Self with the world.

The more I've worked with these practices the more my life has improved. Most importantly to me, I have awakened to my authentic self. Reiki and meditation practices have provided me with a comforting, gentle path of self exploration. It has been instrumental in helping me answer sacred questions such as "Who am I?", "Why am I here?" and "How can I help others?".

I've become increasingly self-aware, less judgemental, more compassionate towards others, and can love and accept myself. I've found a sense of patience and connection not only with the world around me, but with myself. I consider this to be true healing.

My heart led journey of self discovery was an adventure. I learned to look within and found the answers were there for me to sense and feel when I was open enough to listen. I learned to trust myself as I took intuitive leaps of faith - feeling fear, exhilaration and freedom all at once. The meandering path of my journey satisfied my curious and creative nature while adding richness to my life.

I can now see how every step prepared me for the next, and every step took me deeper into understanding myself, my gifts and my potential. It gave me time to develop and deepen my personal spiritual practice which has helped me answer the eternal, sacred questions that used to wake me at 3am.

Consequently my life is more meaningful. I'm more intuitive, joyful and abundant. I feel deep satisfaction knowing I'm expressing my true nature and soul's purpose, and I enjoy a life of trust, love and gratitude.

I know who I am, and why I'm here. I'm here with you, a like-minded seeker. Please allow me to share my soul's purpose by helping you to remember and express your True Self.

You probably have an indescribable yearning to know who you are, why you're here and how you can live a fulfilling life. You long to discover your unique talents and gifts, or you have a deep desire to strengthen your developing intuitive gifts so they can be used to help others in a meaningful way.

It is my honour to be your guide as you explore the depths of your soul to answer your sacred questions. The truth is you already have the answers, you just need the tools to access them. In my experience it has been the spiritual practices of Reiki and meditation that have provided the most profound transformation, while creativity has helped me develop the courage to outwardly express my soul with the world.

Let me share these tools with you. Learn to hear your soul more clearly so you can transform from confusion, frustration and boredom to living in clarity, joy and soul led passion!

When we live a life we love, our joy naturally radiates out into the world. We effortlessly begin to make the world a better place, just by our loving presence in it. Will you join me in making the world a better place, by becoming the best version of yourself?

With love and gratitude,

Charisse Joy

Recent Posts